i wish dere was an over d counter test...

for loneliness like dis...for confusion like dis...for suffocation like dis..i hope one day i find wat i need... coz i don't know why am i unhappy....why don't thoughts leave me..why cant i be wat i am....why is it so difficult to be myself...i have left behind .far behind ..who i am....no i dont know what it is...wish all dis wasnt happening....i hadn't dream them to turn up like dis....i am distorted in parts.....they r taking away my parts....it feels numb....i am not dumb,no matter wat they say...no matter wat they think of me....why do they bother me so much...wat is natural....how far can i run....how far can i look in d horizon...i want love ....papa loves me a lot...no one can ever love me so much....but y don't i feel it....y am i so numb ...



tell me ...dont stay quiet like i do...in front of people.....they give me a headache...not dere fault i know....but cant help it....if i feel sad how can i deny...n pretend to be happy n mingle in d crowd,

DONT LEAVE ME ALONE

I LOOK UP IN THE SKY
I GAZE AT THE STARS
I ASK THE CLOUDS
DO THEY KNOW WHERE AM I
LONELINESS NOW HAUNTS ME
I AM RUNNING IN CIRCLES
TO FIND OUT WHAT IS THE TRUTH

FRUSTRATED OF THIS MENTAL TORTURE
I ASK GOD DOES HE EXIST?
I PRETEND,BUT I DON'T KNOW WHERE AM I
I THANK GOD SOMEONE IS LIKE ME,CHACHAJI,RAVI BHAIYA,S
BUT LOOK AT ME AGAIN CAUGHT UP IN CONFUSION(D. SIR)
TIRED OF LIVING A LIE
I ASK GOD DOESN'T HE LOVE ME?
THEN WHY DOES HE LET THIS HAPPEN
I NEED HELP N EVERY TIME I LOOK FOR IT
WHY CANT I GET IT?

WHY CANT I LIVE LIFE THE WAY I WANT GOD?
ISN'T THIS PLACE TO BE ENJOYED?
U DON'T ANSWER ME MUCH OFTEN
I AM AFRAID WHAT WORT CAN HAPPEN
LIFE HAS BEEN LIKE HELL ALREADY MANY TIMES