know one knows me,i dont know myself...
words r misleading...dey divert from truth..
everytime i get an explanation...from a nwew dimension
help from a new person...

think i hav to work on my own.....

i hav been avoidig judging myself...
people generally view me as ..dont know
but whateva it is...not good

i feel dis way..
dis loniless is creepy,numb
i dont know wats happening..
all i can do is cry...write bulshit..ask god...does HE exists??

everythin is so illusionary...i keep wondern wat to believe in.....

am i meant to be here....
dis stillness,dis silence,it kills me

OVERFLOW OF EMOTIONS

I LIVE , I DEPEND
I GROW, I DEPEND
I NEED LOVE , TO REMAIN HAPPY
BUT I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO RECIPROCATE


I LIVE WITH FEAR
DEPENDENCY NOW SEEMS PARASITISM
MY MIND IS BARRED
IT NOW NEEDS HELP & APPROVAL
AFRAID TO TRUST ITS OWN DECISION

THE LOVE I ASKED FOR SO POSSESSIVELY
IS SO HARD TO GIVE
CUT INTO PIECES BY FEAR
OF REJECTION

IS MY LOVE SO FUTILE?

I TRY TO INITIATE INSTEAD OF RECIPROCATING
THIS BATTLE........IS IT?
HOW FAR AM I GOING TO WALK
WILL IT LEAD ME SOMEWHERE
OR ITS JUST AN ILLUSION??